Tuesday, August 23, 2005 Y
hate myself.. y m i so stupid.. y i din speak more english.. i goin to fail my oral.. fail fail fail.. fail oral.. fail english... i dont wan to retake!!! h0w.. i felt so disappointed bout myself. i was full of confident when i when thre but rather scare.. when i read e passage.. i noe i gonna die.. its bout snake.. i dont understand snake at all!! i realli couldnt describle e pic.. n e conversation oso sux.. i couldnt tok.. i couldnt tink of pts to tok bout.. my whole mind was screw up.. i thought i could do well.. cos i get 28 in my prelim.. but hu noe's... i got too much confident.. i did pract. but.. it no use.. why.. everytink litat.. i'm really v stupid.. i l0st all my confident.. i cannt haf confident in anytink.. if not.. it will turn out to b bad again. jus like today.. i even told em sorry.. n they say nvm.. wad e hell.. e lady is givin mi time to speak. but i jus couldnt tink of pts.. aftr e oral. i tink bout it myself.. i could tink quite a no. of pts.. but wad bout jus now.. y i couldnt tink rite on e spot.. y m i so stupid. i realli hate myself sia.. i couldnt tink of ppl to tok to.. so i msg my cousin.. i felt dat i start to lose frens.. actualli is.. i jus dun wanna msg them.. i dunno wad e hell im tinkin bout.. i got mood swing now.. dunno.. wad im tokin about..
yst nite he call mi.. i din heard e hp rang n thre wad 3 missed call.. its him.. when i wanted to pick up e call he already hang up e cal.. y he couldnt tried e 4th time.. y does he give up so easily.. i was utterly disappointed bout him.. mi n him r not fated to b togther at all.. he jus call mi when i was havin my oral.. another fact dat we r not fated.. shld i end tis relationship?????